There’s so many things that went through my mind that Wednesday. I was only going in for a sonogram to check my babies growth, at the sonogram they not only confirmed that my baby breech, I had extremely low fluids which meant I’d have to be admitted to the hospital.
I called my husband and explained that I’m unable to do a natural birth and didn’t know when a c-section would take place so he had to get to the hospital ASAP. I was scared, anxious, nervous, worried and so happy all at once. I couldn’t stop shaking when the doctor came in and rescheduled my section for the third time. He told me they’d scheduled my c-section for noon. It was 11:32 and I was shaking uncontrollably. My husband was nervous too, we didn’t even know if our baby was a boy or a girl since the tech told us a boy and another said a girl.
It was time.
The C-section was starting. I started to feel dizzy and I laid back holding my husbands hand. I remember looking around at the lights, I remember them saying to “calm down” and them telling my husband to hold a bag for me since I was nauseas. I don’t remember much, but the best thing I remember hearing was a cry. A small beautiful little cry. “It’s a Girl!”
I remember smiling, kissing her and waking up in recovery. I couldn’t wait to see her. She is amazing, beautiful.
I remember thinking “She looks exactly like her Daddy.” All of my little ones do, and I couldn’t ask for a more beautiful Family. They’re all perfect in their very own way.
When I was finally in a room of my own, they let me hold my baby. I didn’t want to sleep without her next to me, I felt needy. Although I was in so much pain, I felt she needed me and I needed her. I began nursing, which made me bond with her. I am so happy she’s a girl. Even after months of expecting a boy. She is beautiful and my babies love their little sister. I’m now the Mother of 3 beautiful girls and 1 handsome boy.
In my eyes, I am the happiest Mother in the entire world right now.
THE NYC MOM 